There was this guy I used to work for at a company and he always found it strange that I woke up at 5am to work before coming into the office. He would say, why do you get up at 5am? And I would say, to study. Study what? With a passive aggressive tone you can tell is being said by a person who not only has no reason to wake up early for anything but also because they suspect themselves to be above you simply because they earn a little extra money. The man never realises that earning less money was a choice.
This boss really disliked how much more of a life I had outside of his office. And rightly so, given that I can see clearly now, his life seemed like it was only inside the office as he didn’t have much going on outside the walls.
I assumed this because he spent much of his time following me ‘in his free time’. How do I know that?
Well, there are many. But one which stands out was a time when he accidentally liked a picture of me. How do I know he accidentally liked it? Because it was a photo you would have only been able to see by going through years and years of my old photos to have found. Then, suddenly, the ‘like’ disappeared. This guy, a boss, spent most of his time, at home, and at night, when this was, keeping eyes on me.
Why?
I’ve now come to two conclusions: he must have either suffered from extreme boredom and therefore had depression. Or, he wanted to fuck me.
He even made a picture of me the company group WhatsApp’s profile picture. What picture? A picture from 10-years ago on my Facebook.
How fucking weird is that?
And because he hated seeing how much activity I had going on outside of the office, he then made me sit in the same office as him when all the other employees had their own dedicated space, which allowed them some free time in their day to browse and do their own thing. He tried his best though to ensure I could never have a minute pursuing my interests during his time. So he put me next to him so he could see that I could never find a moment.
How controlling is that?
Pure narcissistic.
As you can imagine, in the end I left that place. Looking back, there were many times when this guy showed passionate resentment towards me, either because my life was far more interesting than his. Or, my wife more beautiful. My first piece of advice: don’t browse other women on your phone when she’s sitting next to you.
That is a telling sign too. When a man has, or seems to supposedly have everything, yet he still seeks out more that what he has, this is an inner dissatisfaction of one’s own life who is always seeking more than what he has and a mind that can never be satisfied with what it has. For if a man was happy with his wife, he wouldn’t spend his days shopping for fantasy thoughts over fucking other people.
Poor depressed people. My goal is to no longer feel sympathetic towards you. But make you feel worse for bullying nice guys. In that sense, you deserve your unhappy, depressed life.
Many times people have said to me when I tell them what I do they say why are you doing this job or why do you only want this job when you are capable of more that would pay more?
My answer is always the same: freedom. I need freedom more than I need more money. Freedom to explore my interests. Freedom to engage more with my one and only short life.
I want and therefore always choose to go where there is more freedom to work on my own personal goals each day. Not more money in a role that offers no additional opportunities to achieve further complexity within the self.
The same monotonous thing day in, day out? Serve customers, pickup phones, send emails. Serve customers, pickup phones, send emails.
For life? That’s a prison sentence. Not a career.
Perhaps the most soul destroying and depressing way you could spend your one and only short term existence. And from having seen the bored stiff expression on the man’s face when stuck next to him many times my conclusion is he obviously did suffer from depression.
So if that’s you, don’t take your misery out on someone else from your own lack of a life purpose. You made these choices. You decided to marry who you did. You decided to work where you do. If you’re not happy with that, change it.
Change your attitude.
Change your mind.
Change your own fucking life.
This guy, didn’t have a single goal outside of his job, clearly. For being intrinsically motivated to excel in every area that wasn’t his job caused this inner resentment towards me. Like I gave two fucks about your doppy wee products. Because at the end of life, absolutely nobody is going to care about how many fobs they sold.
Conclusion: you are going to come across many assholes like this in your life. The best thing you can do is keep a documented observation over everyone who ever crosses your path. Then, one day, you’re going to wake up and be able to cause even more resentment and even use these psychological skills in order to take them down further, by publicly displaying their lack of an inner purpose. And don’t worry, they won’t get caught. Because who honestly is going to jump out and put their hand up and say, “that’s me he’s writing about. It was me who wanted to fuck him.”
Because they once used to laugh and think it funny that ‘you? You want to be a writer?’
Well haha dickhead. Now you have read about your life from my perspective, since I’ve started to become a great writer ✍️
Being the boss of any company and being made to feel smaller or less significant than your employee sure must feel shit. Well, adapt yourself, change yourself, grow yourself. Push yourself to be more than you are. Nobody, and I do mean nobody, has to remain stuck as a sales clerk.
Hence why you will never see me in sales ever again. Because to be honest, I haven’t got the time to be depressed. And sales people, from my experience, are depressed, but pretending that they are not, by taking it out on the guy who is much happier. And simply for that reason.
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EARN FROM THE COMPANY: BUT ONLY EVER WORK FOR YOURSELF
“Don’t work for 8 hours a day for a company then go home and not work on your own goals. You’re not tired. You’re uninspired.” – Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson.
To further that: if you are uninspired then your probably also feeling bored at times either with yourself or your own life. As even with all this time and the opportunity to do something useful and meaningful, you instead choose something completely pointless and therefore deserve to suffer boredom as the punishment for your own shitty existence. And then, your worst fear comes true: sooner or later, old age starts to creep up on you and you realise your life has in fact amounted to nothing, and you have ultimately gone to achieve being and becoming no one.
Shit one for you.
It is a wonderful thing when one too many narcissists team up on a nice empath. What never gets considered is what if the empath becomes narcissistic some day himself? He may use the same power we use against him, against us?
The solution: don’t be a dick to nice people. For if we continue to act narcissistically towards an empath we may end up achieving the opposite of our goal and transform the empath into one of us with an even greater narcissistic skill than we do.